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You Are Not Your Body

A few weeks ago I had a moment where I felt as though I was being judged.  An exchange occurred, and a comment was made in passing in reference to something physical about me.  The actual comment are not relevant, but I felt called to blog about this because so many of us can  feel judged by others, judged by something outside of ourselves, even judged by God.

Judgement is always an illusion of fear, to keep us stuck, to hold us back, to keep us playing small.

The experience prompted me to do some soul-searching and investigate why I felt judged.  First.I allowed myself to react to my feelings, and my perception of the “judgement” Then I went to the text of “A Course In Miracles. next, the teachings of Abraham Hicks, and I  asked the angels for guidece,  What I received  was a knowing that in truth there is no judgement.  Judgement is not real.  This was hard for me to accept at first, because for me, when I felt as though my physical body was being judged that felt very vividly painful/  I felt as though the comment was cutting straight to the core of every flaw I’d ever felt about my body.  It brought up feelings that I wasn’t good enough, that these apparent flaws implied there was something wrong with me.  I felt instantly unattractive, my spirit sunk as I began to wonder if people really saw me as something that needed to be fixed as  I felt these comment suggested.

Was I really something that just needed to be fixed?

Make no mistake, the person involved had no malicious intent, in fact, I’m sure they felt their comment was harmless. People are often completely unaware of the power their words can have when they speak.   In the moment though,  this comment brought up every feeling I’ve ever had about my body, being viewed by other people as different, unattractive, and unlovable.  It wasn’t even the words spoken, it was the implication that because something looked “abnormal” there was something wrong with me that needed improvement.  I didn’t like been seen like this, because it didn’t feel accurate at all

The angels let me know that when we feel judged by others, this is a sign that something doesn’t match up with our true selves, our spiritual essence, our truth.    This is why we feel pain, because our true self our higher self only  celebrates what is loving and wonderful about us.  There are no real “flaws” nothing that needs to be “fixed.”  When we feel judged by others, we know something s off.  we are also judging ourselves.  It’s a sign we are placing too much weight on the opinions of other people and not giving ourselves enough self-love.

This took the focus completely away from the comments that initially pushed forward my feelings,  It brought the focus away from anything external including the other personality.    It  brought things right back to center –  back within.  The only person who has power over my feelings is me.  I can choose to let one person’s perception of my physical body bother me, or I can choose the truth I know.

 I have chosen come into a body that deals with some challenges to learn important lessons spiritually;   I know it looks a heck of a lot worse to an outside bystander than it actually feels for me..  I am so much more than my body, and deep down I love the person that I am,  I try on a daily basis not to focus on my illusion of “flaws.”  It isn’t always easy, that is the journey.  I try to focus on being the best person I can be.  I make the choice to be of service to others and to the world.

I consider it a personal mission to help people feel connected to the loving essence present in everything.  Once we are aware of this love and it’s power, we become acquainted with how wonderful we really are.  Potential becomes  limitless, and miracles occur everywhere.  This is why working with angels is my calling.

Not long after this experience where I felt judged, I was at the health food store getting groceries I met a lady there who kindly helped me pack my buggy,  She asked me during the course of our conversation, what physical condition I was dealing with.  When I told her Cerebral Palsy, she was visibly shocked, and went on to explain that fro her perspective a person could not tell it was so mild which is why she asked.

I knew this was the angels way of showing me an example of how the same thing cam be perceived differently.  One experience was completely out of alignment with the truth of who I am, which is why I felt the pain of illusion judgement.

Lesson 31 in A Course In Miracles says:

I am not the victim of the world I see.”

We are certainly not, since we create our own reality.  These two closely linked incidents were powerful teachers that I wanted to share.  May they shed light for all of you who read this.

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The Art Of Surrender

Surrender and release have been an area of great challenge and development for me. As I continue to work with the angels – I am learning more and more that this is an area many of us struggle with. The idea of trying to “go out there and make things happen” is so common in the world today. As I really examine my life and past decisions I made I realize that I liked to feel in control. Always in pursuit of the elusive “Next thing.”

I’ll be happy when I have that good grade or job,” I’ll be happy when I make more money. I’ll be happy when so and so reacts this way or that way in response to me. I’ll feel loved when Fill in the blank.

Before I began my work with angels and my study of “A Course In Miracles.” I really had no concept of this idea that in this world of form, we’re living amid this concept of the split mind. The ego, the voice of fear identifies us as a body that is separate from spirit, love, truth, divinity, the part of us that is eternally love.

I came to a place I realized I had been spending most of my existence feeling bad about the past, blaming myself for things I couldn’t change (things that ultimately were blessings and learning opportunities that got me to the place I am in today). If I wasn’t feeling bad about the past, I was obsessively worried about the future. What would happen next? what did things mean? What if I made another huge mistake? Where was the next money going to come from? Worry worry worry. The fear was so big, I couldn’t focus on anything else. I was either stuck in the past, depressed and miserable, or trapped in an endless cycle thinking no matter what my goal was – I would somehow mess it up. I wanted to plan out as much as I could, because in my planning – I thought was my influence over the outcome. My grip on the future so tight, there was no joy to the process or the journey at all. I was never at peace.

Those who are certain of the outcome can afford to wait, and wait without anxiety.”

– A Course In Miracles.

Learning to let go has been one of my most challenging lessons. Often my ego likes to manipulate me into believing that holding some influence or control over outcomes gives me freedom and power in my life. The opposite is true. The more relaxed and detached I can remain in any situation, the more I trust that something much larger than me, my angels, divine energy is not only working on my behalf, but knows my true desires even better than do. The more at peace I am.  The beauty is, I can have absolutely no idea what will happen in a given situation, and still feel at peace because I can choose to trust.

Surrender and release is a daily practice. I can tell you with absolute certainty I haven’t achieved perfection with it. which isn’t the underlying message of surrender. It isn’t like you suddenly wake up knowing how to let go. For me it has been about learning to trust the spirit within, learning  NOT  to push aside fear when it comes up. Rather than looking at my fears as a weakness, choosing to embrace each experience of it – including the discomfort. Channeling that fear into prayer for the highest good has helped me find peace in many situations This has allowed me to release my preconceived ideas of what I think it is I need or want – and accept that spirit always has a brilliant plan for me.

The angels lovingly say surrender & release does not mean “giving up” on dreams or desires. It simply means allowing ourselves to let go of the struggle and pain, knowing that with faith and trust the most favorable outcome will come through and present itself.

As long as I have the willingness to trust, I can relax into any situation – even those that have results which are the opposite of what I thought I wanted.  I have the power to transform even a “crappy” situation into a blessing.  The only factor that can change is the openness with which I am willing to tap into that power.  Some days I am willing, other days, I am not.  How about you?

There is always a blessing in every situation – even if it takes time to recognize the blessing it’s there, waiting  to meet with willingness to receive it.

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Spirit Junkie

Spirit Junkie was the first book I read when spirit guided me to the astounding coaching work of Gabrielle Bernstein.  You can read more about my blessed journey to my intuitive coaching work with angels by reading my blog most My Journey To Angels. Gabby became a mentor of mine and her book “Spirit Junkie” quite literally transformed me.

  Spirit Junkie When I read the book, I could relate so much to her story.  Although the details of our lives were very different, we had both overcome adversity in our lives to be guided toward inquisitive coaching work,  Gabby’s teachings are inspired by a metaphysical  spiritual text called A course In Miracles.  Spirit Junkie is her personal autobiography detailing her journey as both a teacher and a student of the course.

One of Gabby’s many gifts lies in her ability to take the often heady text of A Course In Miracles and demystify it’s core concepts making them more accessible to a younger generation (The very reason I was guided to her work and resonated so deeply with how she communicated course principles). Spirit Junkie was my first exposure to A Course In Miracles and it was enough for me to know from a profound place inside  that the course was an integral part of my path. fear

I too consider myself both a student and a teacher of A course In Miracles. Let me delve briefly in to some fundamental A Course In Miracles concepts At the core of the course is the key concept of the split mind. We all have an ego. The part of our mind that is the fear voice. The part of our minds that believes we are separate from spirit, God, source, spirit whatever you want to call the energy of spiritual truth. When we are tuning into the ego (the voice of fear) it is often unconscious because no one would willingly choose fear if they knew there was a better way. That fear voice unknowingly causes us to turn away from the voice of truth which is love, self love, spirit, forgiveness and faith. The ego’s tiny mad idea , and we as Gabby calls it causes our ego mind to create false projections of our reality, and we carry those projections with us and replay them over and over again in our belief systems about ourselves,, our relationships with other people, and even our perceptions of past events and situations. It isn’t that the voice of spirit aka love isn’t always within us, it’s that the voice of fear (ego) blocks the truth that love is already there.

Through the process of forgiveness we bring the voice of fear into the light and remove blocks to the awareness of loves presence. Sounds pretty deep right? It is. But it’s actually much simpler  than it sounds. It’s the ego part of our mind that makes things complicated. Because once we shed light on fear it has no power over us any longer and love illumines every area of our life. I can’t even begin to describe how much this book has been trans formative in my life and helped me release crazy crap that was holding me hostage.  I would recommend it to anyone.  Even if you disagree with some of the material, you are bound to glean insight from it.

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My Journey To Angels

As a child, I knew I was intuitive, but I chose to turn away from it.  I wanted to fit in, and I was desperate for approval.  I wanted to be liked and  to belong.  I always had a deep sense of spirituality.  Without question, I have always believed in God, source, energy love and angels, but I found that talking about any of these subjects at any depth was intimidating for people and I felt I was labeled as “odd.”  I already had enough that made me different (or so I perceived), I chose the path of fear.  It’s Ironic really, I wanted to experience love so much that I was willing to go anywhere outside myself to get it.  The funny thing is – love must exist within first.  Nothing “out there” ie: other people, status, recognition. promotion, relationships or other things outside can “fill up” what we feel may be lacking in our lives.

 Angels This brings me to my connection with angels.  I’ve already mentioned that I chose to turn away from my intuitive abilities.  After several years of looking outside myself in virtually every area of my life – I was deeply lost, depressed and disconnected from spirit.  I had reached an all time low in terms of how I felt about myself.  My higher self knew that my destiny was to be of service to comfort and uplift, teach , speak, and consult but I was so desolate I couldn’t con-sieve of how I would find my calling.  All I knew at the time was that I was determined to heal the parts of mt life that had brought me to such a breaking point.  I had been “diagnosed” with a form of anxiety disorder,  and at the time felt that everything I knew to be true in my life was crumbling around me.  I knew in that moment that this current reality I was living was not my truth. I remember sitting on my couch filled with so much emotional pain that my body ached.   I didn’t know it then, but my extreme sensitivity to energies had caused my to carry other people’s pain and suffering as well as my own.  With tears blurring my vision I began to ask heaven for help.  My intuition was screaming at me that there had to be a better way than this.  My higher self was right – there was.  Today, every value I once held has shifted.  I now know the value that coping with extreme anxiety has taught me, and that I can shift my own perception of anything with the help of the angels, spirit, and the inner voice of love we all share. Spirit intervened for me and I was guided to take to the internet.  I was guided literally to Gabrielle Bernstein’s website and she has become one of my greatest spiritual teachers and mentors.   Just a side note about being guided – I had absolutely no idea where the guidance was taking me.  I just knew it felt 100% right for me.  That’s the way guidance works for all of us.  We all have an inner voice that speaks truth, and we have an intuitive knowing when we follow the path that is meant for us.  When I was lead to Gabby’s work, I knew I was home.  I began a daily meditation practice even though I had never really meditated before.I changed my diet, began taking yoga  I knew the key to my health and happiness was change.  With meditation. and exposure to the uplifting spiritual teachings of Gabrielle Bernstein, Abraham Hicks, Marianne Williamson and Louis Hay I have been set on a life long process of creating  genuine inner peace and happiness in my life. After two months of learning to listen to the voice of my guidance, studying the incredible work of Gabrielle Bernstein and A Course In Miracles; and continuing with my meditation process, one day I was listening to Gabrielle’s weekly radio show Spirit Junkie on Hay House Radio featuring an angel communicator. I instantly resonated with the gentleman being interviewed on the show, and my intuition was once again loudly speaking to me to continue investigating the connection I have felt with angels since childhood.  Anytime I was investigating anything involving angels and spiritual teaching,  I felt alive and incredibly calm and peaceful.  The more I learned, the more I felt that my life purpose.  I booked a session for myself with that same angel communicator from the radio show. During the session, I received confirmation of my natural intuitive ability, my connection to angels and that my life purpose involved spiritual counseling and using my gifts to support, uplift. motivate and serve others.  I was vigilant in my meditation practice and spiritual learning.  I asked the angels to continue guiding me along my path.

I asked for miracles, and the more I asked, the more they materialized.  With the help of the angels I was blessed to receive certified Holistic Angel Coach™ training with Monick Halm & Nina Jasmine from Life Alchemy School.  My life as a result of this training and other influences Spirit and the angels have infused as blessings have completely transformed me from the inside out.  I am now using my intuitive gifts and natural talents as a leader speaker and teacher, and equally a student to help others progress in their lives.  This is my life purpose, my calling, and a genuine blessing I will always be thankful for.

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The Power Of Affirmations

worthySelf help literature and medical science alike have been linking mind, body and spirit together for decades.  I believe every human on the planet would benefit from allowing affirmations into their daily life.

Carol Bernette was once quoted as saying: “Only I can change my life, no one else can do it for me.” 

 

This is such a powerful statement  I needed to be a darkly place, before I was willing to allow affirmative prayers and affirmative statements into .my daily spiritual practice.  Not that I never used affirmations, mind you, but I wasn’t consistent about it by any stretch.  Many times, I would say the words, but energetically underneath the phrases, I really didn’t believe what I was saying.  Therefore, I was resisting the love and the true essence behind the words. Furthermore, if my affirmations were not achieving the results I wanted in the time frame I had predetermined in my mind; I would use that as evidence that things were not working, and I would proceed to beat myself up over it.  This is all an ego trip, and I can fall into it even today if I am not vigilant in creating my thoughts.  Yes, you read right, I said creating my thoughts. When I talk to others about how they are doing with their affirmation work, I’m comforted in the knowledge that as humans we all struggle with the idea that we have the power to create out thoughts, that we are not simply passive participants in our lives.  This can be a hard concept to grasp, especially when you consider that we all are equally capable of creating situations that we clearly do not want, yet  on an unconscious level and we live with these circumstances because they stem from a base belief we have carried since childhood or picked  elsewhere up along the way.  We all want to believe we would never create an unwanted desire, unconscious or not.desires

 Once we are able to accept that we create our experiences (this is a moment to moment acceptance, not just an hourly or a daily one – then we become truly empowered. I’ve been a “fix” personality most of my life.  My intuition and my sensitivity (when I I choose not to stand in my power, but rather latch on to the idea that something “out there” perceived by my ego mind  has power over me – caused me to take on the fear, pain and suffering of others without even being aware I was taking it on.  Several years before I began my coaching practice, I would have told you I felt completely alone in how I felt.  Now however, I know that many others share the same feelings a had.  I’ve also been giving the blessing of knowing that every experience I have ever had, every emotion I have ever felt can now support someone who is feeling something similar as we are all one. I spoke before of being a “fixer” my sensitivity made me acutely aware of energies, emotions and feelings even if I didn’t fully comprehend  what I was picking up on.  This also gave me an intense desire to take away pain and suffering, to fight to solve “problems” even to my own detriment.  This placed me in a position to understand what it means to have an obsessive desire to please.  This tension filled energy is all about control.  It’s about going out and getting fixing and solving.  It’s a trap so many of us can unknowingly fall into.  In our desire to get, have, achieve and make things happen, we hold on so tight we stand  in direct opposition to what we want.

The key to using affirmations is gentle willingness.  I have found it helpful to use the  word willing in my affirmations, especially if whatever it is I am holding the intention to create something I might feel is slightly out of my reach.  Willingness creates belief.  In other words, even if you don’t fully believe, but you have the will to believe coupled with trust in spirit to do the work for you, and the patience to wait for divine timing.  That is enough. This is the gentle love the beloved has for each and every one of us.  Gentle willingness allows me to relax a lot more, and has really taken the pressure off my personal spiritual practice. Here are some affirmations that have created shifts for me.  I share them with the intention that they assist you to create shifts for you as well.  I want to preface that using affirmations does not mean simply “Be positive” even in the most horrendous of situations.  This is a common misconception, and once that I didn’t understand when I began inviting spirit into my life.  No human being should expect themselves to make sunshine and rainbows out of something that feels like it sucks.  Likewise, being negative about everything isn’t authentic either.  The true essence in inner work is the individual process of being willing and receptive to uncovering the underlying lesson and the love within any situation.

abundance I am willing to receive the lessen and the love in Name specific situation. It is done. Sometimes when people begin affirmation work being specific about a desire they have feels too unbelievable for them.  If someone is wanting to create more financial abundance but to start a specific figure feels too intimidating in these situations, I have found it best to go much more general/ I am open to new and creative possibilities for abundance thank you. I am worthy of receiving abundance in all ways.  And so it is. Try it  and remember to be gentle with yourself

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Unconditional Love From Pets

If you are an animal person who has always had a special spiritual connection with animals, then you probably know the innocent and unconditional love experienced by having a pet.  Animals have souls like people do.  Just like every other relationship in our life, pets are divinely assigned gifts from God to help us progress spiritually and experience unconditional love.

Animals pick up on our energies, and their purpose is to love unconditionally, and to absorb negative energies.

They offer us comfort and companionship that is pure. The bond of love that exists between pets and their owners is eternal and exists beyond time and space.  This is why from a spiritual perspective, when the body leaves this plane of the physical world and the soul enters non-physical, our pets loving energy remains connected to us while we remain in our physical bodies, and even beyond that when we enter non-physical.  Animals teach us about our capacity to love and offer unconditional comfort and protection.  The only thing they want in return is love. Have you ever spent time observing your pet?  A wonderful thing about animals which provides a great lesson for humans is that their  focus is always on the present moment.  They only know the here and now. With the exception of situations of serious  animal abuse, animals have no use for thoughts of the past, nor do they dwell in worry of future events.  Animals are perfect embodiments of what it means to just “be” in the moment.  They live in a constant state of presence.

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I often refer to my little 3lb Yorkshire Terrier as an angel in my life.  I truly believe she is.  Even before I got her I knew I wanted a very small Yorkie.  It took about a year to manifest this desire everything from her name to the material means for her care was brought to me out of desire, to have her, the strength of my faith I would have a dog, my unwavering focus on what I wanted, and the strength of my belief that I was worthy of achieving my desire.  Ever since, my little Emily has been a constant source of joy, love and comfort.   She is a blessing I will always be thankful for