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How I Received A Message About Loving Myself When I took My Dog To The Vet

The metaphysical Spiritual Text “A Course in Miracles” The course teaches that all fear and suffering comes from investing in a learned identify, a false self that is invested in separation and pain. The truth of what we are actually has no identity with the physical body.

What we are is Love in its purest form. When we aren’t in alignment with that, we experience guilt (whether conscious or unconscious), pain and suffering. Everything we experience can be witnessed through fear which is never the truth, or Love which is always the truth. Everything in our life can be used to strengthen, our awareness of love. Our experiences can also be used to strengthen our investment in the false sense of self. My recent trip to the vet with my dog was a beautiful example of the contrast of the false identity and the stillness, the knowing that comes when we choose to rest in Love.

I have a beautiful dog, She is an absolute blessing in my daily life. She is a wonderful reminded of the present moment and the choice we all have control over. The choice to be happy no matter what appears to be going on. While it is true she doesn’t enjoy bath time, she doesn’t spend any time dwelling on past bathing mishaps, or anticipating future ones. Yes, she doesn’t like having baths (and she has a way of letting me know she disapproves), but when the time comes she accepts it for what it is, .Emily is a teacup Yorkie, full of joy and love. Every year I put money aside to have her teeth cleaned.

My vet has been telling me for the past several years that Yorkshire Terriers as a breed are known to have “bad teeth.” I’ve explored many alternatives over the years as options to care for her teeth. Before I had begun my journey working with angels and studying A Course In Miracles, Emily’s vet visits were a source of massive anxiety for me. Each time she went for her annual cleaning I would worry about the possibility of my sweet dog potentially losing teeth.

In September, Emily turned the earthy age of 8 (though her spirit is always youthful. On March 13th, she had her annual teeth cleaning. I asked the Angels to be with Emily throughout the checkup and cleaning, and I asked for the highest good to be done. I released everything to the care of God & I went about my day more relaxed then any previous appointments. Several hours later I received a call from the vet saying that Emily’s 6 tiny front teeth were diseased, and needed to be removed.

In my mind I immediately went to guilt. “What could I have done to prevent this?” “What could I have done to take better care of Emily?” “What could I have done to make it so she wasn’t facing this situation in the first place?” I even felt myself feeling defensive at some of the vet’s questions.

I’ll be honest, I felt very uncomfortable, and I was very aware of my discomfort since my spiritual practice has granted me so much peace, and a willingness to go with the flow of life in the awareness that my true identity is not what I see “out there” in terms of a body that experiences problems and conflict.

I wasn’t feeling peaceful when the vet called me though. I stayed feeling discomfort for several hours which felt very unusual. I am now much more comfortable aligned with Love, so anything that isn’t peace actually feels intolerable. During the vet experience I felt really guilty.  A Course In Miracles teaches that “Guilt is always insane.” So, I chose to take that insanity and look at it with Spirit.

I know from working the principals of A Course In Miracles that discomfort only comes up to be observed with love. Observing something un-judgementally allows it be released and exchanged for true perception. 

I wasn’t seeing myself with true perception while I was stuck in the guilt and the Self-blame. All I was seeing was the effects of my judgement. Once I was ready to look at my guilt and feel it n all of its ickiness I became open enough to embrace a miracle and be willing to accept a shift in perception.

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I talked with Spirit and the Angels about everything I was feeling, my extreme discomfort, my bewilderment that this whole experience was bothering me so much.

I even looked at my frustration with myself for feeling so frustrated (LOL).  

It was then that I received the intuitive message that Emily losing these teeth was an agreement that had already been made on a Soul level, there was never anything I could do to change anything that occurred, and by being willing to authentically look at what was coming forward, I was able to transform the entire experience from one full of fear, to one exploding with Love.  

Once I was able to let go of the guilt, I was able to see and recognize so many other miracles that had occurred around the entire situation. I had been asking Spirit to look after everything for me, and Spirit had done just that, Emily was given tremendous loving care. Her vet bill invoice was printed at 1:11 which in Angel Numerology means “Your thoughts are manifesting, stay positive!”

Miraculously, the vet was inspired to remove several charges from the bill for Emily’s care as a gift. There is no doubt in my mind that God and the Angels were behind the gift of financial savings.

Emily is doing wonderfully, there was no ideal as far as she is concerned, to her, she hadn’t lot anything, and she has no attachment to those teeth whatsoever!
Emily taught me so much about an attachment I was hanging on to, and still placing belief into.  I call her my “Little Angel Dog” and she truly is.  She helped me look at areas where I wasn’t choosing for complete innocence.  What a gift!

 I’d love to hear from you, if this blog resonates with you.  Feel free to share your personal experiences in the comments below!

Love Deedre

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You Are Beautiful

I haven’t blogged in a long while.  I’m the type of person that needs to feel very passionate and moved to speak before I will venture out and say anything.  I haven’t felt called to blog in recent months, not because there isn’t a plethora of topics to write about, rather, I’m always thinking about content – something that might hold some meaning, or speak to the heart.

We humans are very critical of our earthly costumes.  When I say costume, I mean our physical bodies.  The container that is the wrapper of our Soul.  This physical body container is not who we really are, yet the human condition of the world we “see” with the body’s physical eyes creates the illusion that the physical body is our identity.

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If you are reading this right now, I want to share with you that you ARE beautiful.  Exactly as you are, right NOW!  You are beautiful and perfect, BECAUSE of your  essence.  You do not need to “fix,” “force” or “be happy when…” you make some external change  to the the physical body container.  (Diet, exercise, clothing, cosmetics, acquiring all the right “worldly possessions,” or even “earning a certain income”, or having a certain “specific goal.” Beauty has no gender, no “ideal” shape or size.  Beauty isn’t measured by standards or rules of conformity. The latter, are all ego concepts based on separation.   True beauty is the Divine Light that shines brightly within everyone.  It is knowing that you are not your past or your future.  It is knowing that LOVE is who you are, and LOVE is what you extend forward while having a physical experience here in the world.

Beauty is not something to achieve. outside, because we already have it within.  Often we’ve just covered our light with a muddy film – because we’ve forgotten who we are.  We unconsciously choose to “see”/create flaws, that are illusion.  In truth, there is only perfection. This is something I continue to accept.

Your worth is established by God.  NOTHING can change this.”

-A Course In Miracles

While there’s nothing “wrong” with diets and self-improvement techniques of various kinds, the root of true beauty & self esteem comes from learning to accept yourself exactly as you are in the NOW.

Like Lady Gaga’s fabulous song “Born This Way,” demonstrates:

“I’m beautiful in my way
‘Cause God makes no mistakes
I’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way
Don’t hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you’re set
I’m on the right track, baby
I was born this way.”

Love, Deedre

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To Receive, First You Must Ask

giftIn the last year, I’ve made the commitment to myself, to eat organically grown food, to avoid chemicals as much as possible, to eliminate processed sugar, caffeine, and finally to transition to a vegan diet (currently in process). I want to preface the former statement by saying, all of these things I have felt guided to do.

I am by no means suggesting that this is the “How to eat a good diet” type of story. We’re all different, with unique metabolisms, no two people are going to eat the same way.  Always follow your personal guidance

I know without question,  that I have been divinely guided every step of the way to make dietary and lifestyle changes. I have become extremely sensitive, which also includes making the transition to non-chemical natural-based household cleaners. One of my favorite product lines for Natural cleaners is Seventh Generation. (More on that in another blog!)

This brings me to a story I felt guided to share. Yesterday, I went out shopping to my local natural health-food store. I have become a frequent shopper to this store, and I was given a gift certificate as a birthday gift from some friends. It had taken me a considerable amount of time to redeem the gifted amount, and in that time, amongst the shuffle of papers, I had misplaced my copy of the redeem slip for the certificate. I should mention, here, that for the last several months, my angels have been guiding me to work on my giving to receiving ratio, lovingly telling me that my capacity to allow myself to receive is far out of balance with my comfort level in giving to others. The angels also tell me, I am not alone.

Many of us struggle with this, which is the very thing that inspired me to write this blog. For many years, I have been acutely sensitive, to “bothering” people, worrying about “inconveniencing” them, “putting people out” or not allowing anything or anyone to “fuss” over me.

Another classic example of my inability to allow myself to receive was with complements. Even until very recently, (I’d say the last 2 months), if someone gave me a compliment, I would find a way to either deflect what was said, and shift the conversation back to the other person, or flat-out deny the compliment literally, and declare myself unworthy of it. In either case, I was refusing to receive or accept the love given from others. Isn’t that sneaky? In the past I didn’t even realize, I was denying myself. But, I sure have noticed, now that I am making a conscious effort to shift, allow and receive compliments by taking them in, and saying thank you!

Are you unknowingly denying yourself opportunities to receive?

As I waited at the till in the health food store for my grocery total, my intuition spoke so loud it was deafening. “Ask about your gift certificate!” I did just that. I had no attachment to whatever would happen, I simply trusted I was being guided. I explained how I’d misplaced the slip, but wondered if the store might have a record of a purchased gift certificate?

The clerk was happy to check for me, and after a few moments of searching, was able to produce the receipt with my name on it!  The store happy to honour my voucher.

The clerk herself unknowingly confirmed the intuitive voice of my angels and guides. She gave me validation, I had heard, and followed though as I was guided. “You don’t ask, you don’t get!” She smiled.

If I had spent time playing small and worrying about asking, as I have done so many times before, I would have missed out on a lovely opportunity to receive, thank you, Angels. xo