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Asking For What You Want

There was a time in my life prior to my exposure to A Course In Miracles; when I once believed that being a “good” spiritual person, meant waiting for God to deliver whatever I desired.  I thought my faith was demonstrated by how patiently I waited, how much I prayed, or made sacrifices by placing my needs below those of others. I acted as though God was some mysterious force outside of me, that knew what I wanted without my asking.  I treated God as an entity I looked to for guidance, but I had no idea of my power as a creator.   So years would pass and nothing would change.  I convinced myself I must be doing something wrong (listening to fear).   It wasn’t until I registered in Lisa Natol’s A Course In Miracles  40 Day Transformation program, while I was engaging in one of the homework assignments that it finally hit me.   All that time, I had been WAITING for what I wanted to show up!  I hadn’t actually been specific in ASKING for what I wanted. I hadn’t really ASKED with purpose.  I had only truly manifested anything in my life because the desire for it was much bigger than my fear of not receiving,  Yes. I had co-created desires  before, but never with quite as much purpose, always indirectly without having  clear knowledge about how to tangibly create my reality with Spirit.  I studied the Law Of Attraction, but my belief in myself and my abilities as a creator didn’t match my desires.

Socially, we often pick up these limiting beliefs that it is selfish to ask for what we want.  We buy into those limited fear-based  beliefs encapsulated in the roles we choose to take on, so that we can play small.  True spiritual growth comes from being willing to go to deep places of self examination, and admit to ourselves that we get something out of littleness.  Admit we’re actually afraid to be great.  It is confronting to learn to accept that we are the creators of our own reality,  I can honestly say, there have been days where I have thought “WTF-ever, I didn’t create this!!! I’m not taking responsibility!  Forget that!!”  Yet, every time I really commit to the inner work of truly and deeply looking, I would find, that yes I did create it, or it wouldn’t be my reality  I can choose to stay in littleness and, continue to beat myself up over my creation choices, or I can choose magnitude; ask for the miracle, receive a shift in perception, and awaken as a result of that shift given from Spirit.

I want to share with you a story of how I was guided to the place which I am currently living.  I want to share it, because for me,  it has not only been a powerful example of Divine Intervention, but it is also a practical example illustrating that physical miracles are not metaphorical. they are God’s true gift for all of us.  I am not special.  Everyone is entitled to experience miracles.  This is a right bestowed upon all of us by God.

 

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I had been searching for a new place to live, and each place I looked at,  just didn’t feel right energetically. I had a list of things I knew I wanted to have in my new place,   One night, I sat in meditation and I asked God, my Angels & Guides to help me visualize the new location where I would live.  I saw in my minds eye a brightly lit suite, with beautiful white walls, white appliances, wooden linoleum floors and, a full bathroom with a bathtub.

 

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A few days later while browsing online rental listings, I saw the photos of the place I had seen in my meditation.  I laughed immediately filled with intuitive knowing that this would be my new home.  

When I called the landlady to see about the suite, we had a lovely conversation.  she even remarked that I sounded as if I would be a wonderful tenant.  Next came the part where I mentioned I had a very small dog, one that would fit in a purse I asked if they had a pet policy?  She preceded to tell me that they really didn’t want to have someone with a pet.    As I was listening to her speak, I heard the voice of Spirit in my mind guide me to gently let go of any attachment I had to getting the suite.  So, I thanked her very much for her time, and for considering me, and said goodbye.  I caught myself in a fleeting moment of feeling like I might have lost something wonderful, and immediately remembered my intuitive knowledge that this was to be my new place.  I also remebered the promise I had made with Spirit to let go of attachment.  I didn’t think about the suite again until a week and a half or so later, when the landlady responded to one of my previous emails stating they were going to be having an open house and inviting me to come take a look at the suite.  When I reminded her that I was the woman she had spoken to on the phone – the one with the very small dog –  she exclaimed she was very happy I had responded because she had spoken with her husband, and they were now willing to allow my dog.  They were even willing to accommodate my viewing the suite on a different day than was planned which worked better with my schedule.  

In addition to all of this,  on the same day I had the appointment to view the suite I received all the resources I needed to secure my tenancy there.  When I arrived to view the suite, the landlady informed me more than once that she would have to check the references I provided her.  I encouraged her to do exactly as she needed to do.  I wanted them both tot know I was honest, authentic and upfront.  We continued our walk through as she pointed out potential flaws and “problems” that might cause me to rethink choosing to live there.  

I told her everything looked wonderful, trusting beyond anything I was seeing with my bodies eyes, leaving behind any doubt and trusting my intuitive knowing that this was the next place I would be living.

 

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The landlady told me she would be in touch with me in a few days with her decision.  As I was leaving the driveway, the landlady cane into view waving her arms to stop the car.  She said she no longer wished to check my references, and if I wanted the suite, it was mine to take!  “This is God!”  I thought.  Observing the synchronicity as everything unfolded – I was reminded of what my beautiful friend Lisa Natoli teaches “God is never late, and when something is truly meant to be yours there is nothing that can stand in the way of it coming to fruition.”.  The move I practice co-creating  with God, the more I learn the importance of asking.   Being specific about the desire.  Knowing what you want, and being unapologetic in asking for it.  Letting go of all attachment  and completely trusting that everything will come – even if that means the desire comes in a different way than the images or ideas preconceived in your mind.  Being willing to accept whatever happens, and being open to receive what comes, because it will come.  When you place an order, God always delivers with perfect timing!

Love, Deedre xo

6 comments on “Asking For What You Want
  1. Loved it. I have touched on the course of miracles but have not finished it. But what I read felt real. I am working on becoming my authentic self and living my truth, this blog encourages me to stay on track. Thank you.

    I have read the book A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson. Have you read it?

  2. Deedre, thank you for this post! This is so helpful. God’s will for us is truly only happiness…and that means having what we need, and what we want, right? <3

  3. Deedre on said:

    Shilla,

    Thanks so much for taking the time to post a comment, I am glad you find the blog supportive of your personal journey. You are awesome!! 🙂 Yes, Marianne Williamson is fantastic. A Return To Love is am incredible book! as is A Course In Miracles. I’ve found it extremely helpful to study the text in a group. The benefits from being able to discuss the teachings as they apply to life are really profound. 🙂

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