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A Valentine’s Day Miracle

Recently, I have been calling in a romantic soul-mate partner.  I’ve been single for quite some time, and still single presently.   In my “old life”,  I’d managed to convince myself that  a romantic partner  just wasn’t in the cards for me.  I know, depressing right?  I’d even convinced myself I didn’t want to fall in love, I’d never date, let alone get married – I was better off alone.  Who would want me anyway?  That used to be me.   A giant brick wall block to allowing romantic love in.  I’m baring my soul here, as I’m sure many of us have been there, I know I’m not alone in that department.  If you wonder where I’m getting my courage?  I’ll tell you. straight up.  GOD.

I’ve undergone such a spiritual transformation through working with the angels, and studying A Course In Miracles – the more I love myself, and the more I give in the spirit of service – the more I know that a great love IS in the cards for me.  Not because I am looking to get something from someone, but because great love is what I AM.  All I need to do is express the love that I AM,  trust, and have faith in divine timing.

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My angel’s assure me. not only is this going to happen, but it will be better than I could have ever dreamed, because God is in charge of all the details.   God and I co-create a marriage of equals;  whose lives will be enriched by partnership   God will provide for me the perfect spiritual partner with whom I can be myself  in all ways and who will share in spiritual teaching and learning with me.  God will give US the courage, and the strength to work on our commitment together, and see where the process leads us.  My perception of romantic love shifted completely.  My partner and I will learn and grow from each other, be goofy, silly and fun, share common goals in teaching work, and have long in-depth spiritual conversations, centered  in GOD.  Lets not forge lots of romance, fun experiences, traveling, music, movies, hand holding, kisses and great, great sex!   LOL

Let’s be real, we all want that in some sense,  and it is nothing to feel guilty or ashamed about. but the spiritual bond is the foundation for all of that.  My partner and I will also have the freedom to be independent of each other, to embrace contrasting experiences, like different things, and have alone time apart.   I want it all.  I am awesome, so is he, and WE deserve it!!

So do YOU!

In my “old life”  I can now see that I was looking for someone to “fill me up”  to “fix” what I believed was broken about me.  Of course, we never do this intentionally, but it’s pretty much the classic set up for a relationship that’s not going to work,  Why?  Because for years, I didn’t love myself – and I was looking for someone else to validate me.  I thought that being half of a couple would somehow give me the recognition that I was worthy of love.  I was so desperate for someone to love me, I was willing to take on a persona, try to be someone else, so the person would become attracted to me.   I used to believe I was ugly, and if I found a man who thought I was beautiful, them I’d feel fulfilled.  What a mess!  If I don’t KNOW I’m beautiful, how the heck is anyone else going to???

You aren’t broken, you don’t need to be fixed, and if you are looking to someone else to make you feel happy – you will lose yourself in the process.

As you see him, you will see yourself … for in him you will find yourself or lose yourself

~A Course In Miracles

What a recipe for disaster!  I’m so glad THAT is GONE LOL

Now, I’m just excited.  I can’t wait to see what unfolds,  I don’t have all the answers, but I’m enjoying whatever they may turn out to be, I have a lot of love to give, and   my heart is open.

Bring it on!

And so it is.